"We were all over his house. On
the floor and the couches & tables
& beds. He had music blasting
from speakers everywhere. & I let it
take me like when I was at shows,
thrashing around, losing the weight
of who I was, the self consciousness
& anxiety, to the sound. He said
your so tiny, like a doll, you look
like you might break. I wanted him
to break me. Part of me did. He said,
I can make you whatever you want
to be. I wanted him to. But what did
I want to be? Maybe that was the
danger."